"a more pressing problem for me is that i never been able to love anyone else seriously. i have never felt unconditional love for anyone since the day i was born, never felt that i could give myself completely to that one person. never once."
"the one possible exception is a girl i remember very well. we were in the same class in the third and fourth grades in Ichikawa. Yes, I'm talking about something that happened a good twenty years ago. i was very strongly drawn to her. I've thought about her all this time, and even now i still think about her a lot. but i never really talked to her....... but something happened recently that made me want to find her. i finally realized that i need her, that i want to see her...."
"AOMAME, " tengo said. " I will find you no matter what."
i will find Aomame, tengo swore to himself again, no matter what happens, no matter what kind of world it may be, no matter who she may be.
AOMAME ( pp 697-698 book 2 chapter 21)
1Q84: that is the name given to this world. i entered it six months ago without meaning to, and now i am about to leave it quite deliberately. Tengo will stay here after i am gone. i have no idea, of course, what kind of world will it be for Tengo. there is no way i can see it through to the end. but so what? i am going to die for him. i was unable to live for myself: that possibility had already been stripped from me. instead, i will be able to die for him. that is enough. i can die smiling.
this is no lie.
credits to Haruki Murakami 1Q84 and the animator
