I Confessed :)

I Confessed J                                                                                                                   10 April 2013

                The last crazy thing that I did before my college life ends…

                I confessed. Finally, I told him what I really want to tell, though that’s not really everything I want to say but to make things easier, that’s the summary. J I don’t need to state detail per detail every move and every word and every little thing that had happened between us. I know, I’m the only one who thinks of it as special moments.

What do I get from confessing?

Hmmm… let me think about it… NOTHING! J That’s the simplest way to say it. I GOT NOTING FROM IT.

 but why did I confess any way?

Because I feel that that’s what I need to do and so I did.

What’s good about my situation?

 I never feel broken, instead I feel much complete.

How is that?

Because the very first rule not to break your heart after confessing is… NEVER EXPECT A POSITIVE RESPONSE ONCE YOU TOLD HIM WHAT YOU FEEL. You should decrease your expectation level so that if ever he did not give any response or he gave a negative response, the probability of a broken heart is lesser. J

Leave the World Behind and Move Forward

Leave the World Behind and Move Forward                                                        10 April 2013

As time passes by, I got bored each day and thoughts come across me often. As soon as things didn’t go well in my family, I realized that I have the responsibility to help my family. I feel so useless right now because I’m supposed to be out there looking for a job or I must be working now but still, I have no work.

Whenever I am alone, I always have these thoughts that when I got a job, I promise that I’ll do it not for myself but for my family. I’ll do it to help my family first. My own needs and wants can wait. I’ll provide what my family needs. And to do all that, I have to be tough. I have to set my goals. I have to leave this old, stinky world and live a new life. Forget everything in the past and move forward. I’ll do this for my family. It’s my responsibility.