i never thought that things happened beyond my knowledge... well that's a little too exaggerated buy really, a lot of things happened lately. things that were unexpected, things that i never thought would happen. for a normal girl, yes, it was normal incidents... but i told you, i'm not your ordinary girl and that's why not-so-ordinary things happened to me. i don't really know what to feel or how to react on the situation but still what i knew for myself was that as long as i can make someone happy, it's okay.
the truth is no matter what i do, no matter what i choose, i never get what i want, i never get what makes me happy. A lot of times i tried my best to grab what i want, what i think i deserve but i still ended up giving it off to the people i want to see smiling. once i tried taking a risk, i chose to be happy and tried not to think of others happiness...but still someone got hurt, i got hurt and something's got broken. still, i never had the happiness i want.
now, i think there are times when i have to think about others. Give importance to the people to want to see me smiling, who likes to hear my silly jokes and outrageous laughter, who never get tired of listening to my stories, someone who gives importance to me... maybe i should make a glance at them and appreciate what they are doing...
unexpected things happen at the most unexpected time :)
