Thoughts of Blue just by Thinking of You

11 April 2013

                Oh damn! This negativity roams around me again! That’s why I really hate thinking about the past where he was still there. Maybe I’m just so stubborn that I still keep that blueness deep within my existence but for sure, it was not deep within my heart. I no longer keep him inside it. I realized that I can keep him in my life because he was already been a part of me, a part of my past, but just a part of my deep existence but not a part of my heart. I no longer hurt myself by thinking of those moments instead I feel stupid because of what had happened. So it’s really true that when you fall in love, you instantly became stupid no matter how intelligent or strong or logical the person is. Love really can make someone stupid. This stupidity, somehow, taught me a lot and that matters most. Now, I’m glad that at some point in my life I became stupid but I learned. Somehow, it’s part of my little, enjoyable detour through my journey. I decided to stop every bit of thoughts about him. I know that I can manage to block that tiny hole where he’s peeping. And when I finally block it, for sure, I’ll get rid if this blueness within my existence. So help me God. J

WOOOH! I’m a little emotional here, sorry for that J don’t worry. That’s the old me… I’m no longer the emotional, silent crybaby that only I, myself know :D I’m a lot tougher, stronger and as for now I have n time for this stuff.