Vanishing Memories

0:43/ 14 April 2013

                Just done reading The Elephant Vanishes :D

What does that mean?

                That means I’ll get bored again because I’m done reading book and I have no more Murakami with me.

                Few more days and I’ll set back to Manila and start to find a job.

                Actually, there’s this line that I often encounter on the book…

“Why is it you can’t forget what you really want to forget?”

And I just came to the realization that it is so true. Those things that you want to forget, especially the painful and heartbreaking things, the more you wish for them to disappear, the more they surface on your head. It’s just so odd that those were the worst things that ever happened in your life and the fact that you want them to be erase in your head, it simply can’t be deleted even if at some time you think you’re through with it and when you least xpect it, it will surface again. It is really vey stressful that the memories you wished to vanish from the world, from your own little world, just don’t disappear!

                Maybe I was too absorbed by the books I’m reading that’s why I’m beginning to be like this again. But these books brought me a lot of realization. I mean  I know for the fact that I am not as logical as others and it made me feel so insecure.. a lot of intimidations!

                Well how I wish those painful memories will just vanish like the Elephant and it’s Keeper! They come and go and will never return to this pragmatic world I’m living.