damn! this is the first time i ever feel this kind of worse feeling. i made a promise that i'm gonna control myself as much as i can but hell, dude,, what have i done??? i wasn't able to keep my temper and i did that. worst, those stupid people blabber things about what happened without even knowing the truth.
i dont know why this week feels like trouble. since monday, i never felt being hyper or excited going to work. all i ever felt is another day of tension and criticisms.. i dont mind being criticized but just not on the day im not in the mood.
actually, there were a lot of times that i want to cry but i still tried my best to keep it and pretend that im okay. okay, maybe sometimes i cant hide it on my facial expressions but as much as i can, i did my best to keep a firm attitude toward my work. but i believe in this principle, that when you dont like what you're doing, you'll never be happy and you ended up messing around and that's what's happening to me right now on my job...
i dont like the environment im in. i dont like the people. i dont like anyone bossing around. im not into following instructions.. i hate my paperworks!! these complains i keep inside me are the factors why i can't enjoy the job im in...
i hope that next week will be a total change. i dont want to breakdown! i dont want to cry because of this!!! Y_Y
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